About Me

I am not like myself anymore after having a few bad relationships and a psychotic episode and a very unhealthy relationship to my therapist and family. i am positive about making changes in myself to improve my lifestyle and to make more choices to empower myself.
i have a very wayward style of recovering from mental illness and it does not work for me. i have problems trusting men and also family and friends. i stay indoors and i am scared of what people say and think of me. i listen closely to peoples support when they tell me they care but i rarely believe them. i dont feel loved.

More About Me

Location: Auckland, Auckland

Occupation: unemployed

My Philosophy On Life: rehibilitation, creativity, self expression, honesty, free speech, setting a standard for yourself...trying not to inflict those standards onto others...but i do that in my mind most of the time. oh and long distance communicating has been like a philosophy to me...i dont believe i need someone to be in the same country to have a great friendship with them. i also try to raise my understanding towards people in dire straights, and also peoples understanding towards my head injury...this hasnt been a great success for me in life.

My Interests: music, studying, long distance friendship, travel, art, religion, finding quietness in my mind, yoga, spiritual health

My Inspirations: i have been inspired by many people but they have truly hated me and not liked me at all. that is unfortunate., i suppose i would have written family, but they dont exactly inspire me anymore. i would say, ghandi, mother teresa, leonardo davinchy, artists, creators, mentors, healers, good communicators, leaders, my best friend victor, feminists, activists, poets, polititions, gardeners, comedians...honest hard working people truly inspire me, people who take the blame for others who are unwell inspire me, mothers, strong caregivers, quiet, quiet people truly truly inspire me...i yell and talk to myself alot. unabusive, unmaterialistic, unjudging, people inspire me. loyal people inspire me. human rights activists inspire me. unprecious people make me happy and inspire me more than anyone. giving people inspire me. i greatly love maturity in people and dignity and people with a sense of place and self.