What you have had to endure as a child is vile, and to have bottled it up by yourself all these years doubly adds to your distress. Hopefully your current counsellor is helping you, which it sounds like they are.
If at this moment in time you are finding it hard to forgive, which as both Helen and Trinity have pointed out, is an important way forward, then perhaps you could look at things a different way….
Thoughts and words are incredibly fast energies and a single thought can change your world in a matter of seconds. Realising you must feel alone deep down, you need to ask for help from the universe – then you won’t be coping with this all by yourself.
What I would do, is put these people in a huge pink balloon, and imagine the balloon going up into the sky getting smaller and smaller, and out into the universe so it is so tiny, then disappears.
Do this a few times each day, whenever you think of it. Tell yourself these people were ignorant, which is perhaps something you can forgive in someone, then just let it GO…..
You have to move on from now and detach yourself from these appalling, disgusting people. YOU HAVEN’T DONE ANYTHING WRONG and that means you do not deserve to live on this earth feeling unworthy or alone.
Please act straight away – you are much stronger than you think. You don’t need these people to move forward in your life, or their approval. Ask the universe to be with you and help you, but just block out the past in a huge pink balloon.
(The forgiveness book sounds a very good book to read!)
Last edited: 3-03-2008 09:35:06 AM